Lesson Learned

So the other day I talked about the injustice of not being allowed into AP Art History. Well, apparently there were the other factors that contributed to it. Though I don't think they were really that important, they must have added to the problem. Most were just for eating in class, talking to friends when I got sent outside. The works.

I got a chance to talk to my facilitator in Peer Listeners and my art teacher (whom I'm really close to) and they explained that what I thought to be insignificant, they became very significant over time.

Its time that I look back at this incident with more open eyes. Though I might not agree with the other side's decision (maybe I might never will) I have begun to see the other side's issues. I learned during the talk that AP teachers are EXTREMELY stressed out though they might not seem so. They get scored on the quality and score of their students during AP testing. The material they cover are much and the difficulty very hard and they don't have the time nor the patience to control one crazy, energetic student (ahem me) from getting a classroom go nuts (which I'll admit I realize I do unintentionally) so if they get any notion that I might become a small bit of trouble, they will have to boot me out. They're only looking out for themselves.

Its not to say that this is unfair on my part (what part of life isnt?) but I feel like I should've had some kind of warning or some kind of idea of what the consequences were going to be. I would have learned or tried my best to learn from my mistakes and moved on and let it go under the bridge but I guess it will have to be remembered for the future.

The lesson I take from this is simple: don't be so self centered! be aware of the people around you and take into consideration how they would react to something what seems insignifigant to you might not seem that way to the other party. My close friend told me the other day that I have to look at both sides of the story. Learn what the other side has to say. Maybe I didn't do it perfectly, but at least I learned how to do it better this time.

So I might not have gotten into AP Art History, but at least I came off on better terms with one of the teachers and learned a new lesson and I think thats better than coming out of it on bad terms and still thinking that I was completely right. Theres really no clear cut, black and white approach to life many times, both sides is somewhat right, both sides have things that arent really commendable. I guess its time for me to move on. Now that I have and extra slot in my schedule I think I might take Begining Drafting and learn something new

Bad Bad Week

Things have been tough for the past week or so. I'm not going to go very far into the details but it involves some teacher drama and me being kicked out of AP Art History. I'm not entirely sure what is going to be in store for me in the coming days but I know its not going to be easy. Hell, what part of life isn't?

Sometimes I wonder whether the stuff that has happened to me is meant to be, maybe getting in to the class was just a motivator for me to work harder and that another door will open for me to try something else. Or maybe God gave this to me and wants me to fight to be able to keep it and be able to appreciate it more. In the end though, I'm going to fight to keep it because I believe that what has happened to me is unfair and I don't deserve to be dropped from the class. If worse comes to worse and I am dropped indefinitely, then that's what was meant to be and I'll try something else.

I have worked hard. I have put blood, sweat and tears to raise my grades and above all, to grow and mature as a person. I'm not going to go around and bitch and moan about what is happening, I'm going to take a stand and fight for what I want. Some of you might be thinking "Its only AP Art History, why are you so butthurt about this?"

Well, because I care. If I were to be dropped because I did something really inappropriate, then so be it I'll learn from my mistake and move on. But I believe that what is happening to me is unfair and unjust. If I let this off with a shrug, what will the other party think? I'll tell you what, they'll think that it is alright to do this to someone simply because they can and get away with it. I won't allow something like this to happen. Not for me, nor for anyone else after me. I'm not the kind of person that demurely sits by and watches while another does something like this to me and my future. Sure I'm Christian and the Bible teaches all of us to "turn the other cheeck", but I'd soon rip that hand out with my bare teeth than allow someone the chance to slap the other side and do it to someone else in the future.

What I did could not and should not affect me being dropped from a class. (Seriously, it was a minor electronics violation). I'm not here to make accusations. I'm merely putting my firm opinion out on the floor.

The question I have is this: Are they dropping me from the class simply because their friend advises them to do so? Or do they really, deep down in their hearts believe that what I did was so bad, so unforgivable that it merits an expulsion from a class I am more than qualified for?